Sobriety

[Totally]

Couple of good things I needed to happen to keep me sober have not happened. First test.

[king ding-a-ling]

yeah nothing really "good" has happened to me yet either. its hard learning to be patient with this

[bread]

I haven't had a drink since last Tuesday. I'm waiting until Thursday, then I'll have a single beer, and if I can handle that I'll let myself enjoy a few over the weekend. I still want one with dinner every night so it isn't easy but now that I'm actually doing it it's easier than I expected. Waking up in the morning is easier. Eating well is easier. Keeping the house neat and focusing on writing is easier. Wish I could do all that stuff a couple beers deep but that's just never going to happen.

It's also kind of terrifying to realize this is the first time I've gone a whole week without drinking probably since I was 18. That's a lot of fucking money and a lot of fucking calories.

[Juggly D, The Posting Maniac]

im gettin fat cus of beer
d'oh!!

[bread]

Okay I bumped up my single beer test to today because I had a really stressful day, nothing bad happened but there was a lot going on at work and I let that get me crazed. Anyway I decided I could have a beer because I didn't NEED it, I just wanted it (on account of my stressful day), and then as I opened it I realized that's addict thinking but whatever, my only problem with alcohol is that I think I waste too much money and calories on it. Nobody else thinks I drink too much (to my knowledge). Also I went a whole week without having a drink so I feel a bit more at ease. Not drinking isn't the end of the world it's just dumb

[bread]

This thread is my confessional

[bread]

Also to be fair I thought it was Thursday all day

[beave]

two months

[bread]

Wow, that's awesome dude, good job

[pocket shepherd]

nice one beave.

after more work absenteeism this week i'm now officially in the position of only being allowed two days off sick until next june i think. then i get fired. it should seem very real but it doesn't, but at the same time it feels inevitable it will happen. fuck real life.

[gold and glass]

Congrats, beave

[king ding-a-ling]

Congrats, beave

[bread]

Rediscovered wine tonight. It's more of a vacation than a setback?????

[jewels]

wanted one pretty bad when I got home but abstained.

[antoine]

Why is being sober so difficult? My parents have been pretty much sober their entire lives as far as I know and they've never seemed to think they're missing out on anything. Then again, they're much more well-adjusted than I am to normal life.

[pocket shepherd]

Why is being sober so difficult? My parents have been pretty much sober their entire lives as far as I know and they've never seemed to think they're missing out on anything. Then again, they're much more well-adjusted than I am to normal life.

i grew up in an almost totally dry house, my dad was a terrible violent abusive prick when drunk but thankfully he didn't drink much, but yeah none of my siblings or outer family are particularly fond of drink. odd.

anyway this week i had six days of sobriety which feels like it should be nothing special but actually felt like a big achievement.

[king ding-a-ling]

went to a meeting after work and some lady had a seizure and got carried out by the paramedics, she seemed OK after she came out of it and some other people that know her said she has a history of being prone to seizures and is taking medication for it but it was still pretty

i'm coming up on 11 months the day after tomorrow, been feeling really anxious lately since I'm getting so close to my 1st sober birthday but also because the holidays are coming up which means forced interaction with certain extended family members who drink a lot and don't know that i'm sober

[whitebelt]

Congrats on the 11 months!

I haven't kept up with my sobriety because it's been peppered with a beer here and there. Even though I haven't been completely dry, I still consider the year 2007 to be when sobriety started. But I really don't think I could have stayed sober without some kind of support or medications and counseling. It also helps that I work part-time as an art therapy person at a rehabilitation facility. That shit keeps me accountable.

I get so frustrated when I think of all the money and time I spent on drinking and drugs. Money that could have gone towards education, health care or retirement. It's all so insane. The alcohol that I thought was calming me down at the end of a day was actually agitating my anxiety and depression. It's a vicious cycle and I wish you all the best.

Don't give up and don't be afraid to say "no" to people who offer you drinks. They'll get over it.

[daver]

whitebelt-but at least you know now. you could have not realized this until 5 years from now, or never.

king ding-a-ling; yeah, the holidays i'm fine with but im coming up on one year soon too and am feeling pressure to say "yeah i did a year, that's a good learning experience, time for a beer now." but also in the last 10 months my life has gotten way, way better, and i continue to feel more relaxed and productive every day.

[gold and glass]

I don't think I can drink anymore.

[ssa]

I don't think I can drink anymore.

uh oh, what happened?

[gold and glass]

Horse trainer

[gold and glass]

Feels like this would be the type of thread to go in the private forum

[ssa]

Feels like this would be the type of thread to go in the private forum

i feel you on this. first time visiting this thead. don't sully your void, g+g.

[king ding-a-ling]

whitebelt-but at least you know now. you could have not realized this until 5 years from now, or never.

king ding-a-ling; yeah, the holidays i'm fine with but im coming up on one year soon too and am feeling pressure to say "yeah i did a year, that's a good learning experience, time for a beer now." but also in the last 10 months my life has gotten way, way better, and i continue to feel more relaxed and productive every day.

glad to hear things are still going well for you daver. the past few weeks have been really weird, most of time I feel pissed off and irritable for no reason whatsoever. i can't really say that I've been more productive or relaxed lately, just really moody and disconnected. seems like i have too much bs on my mind to concentrate/focus, which is bad considering that I have to prep for a certification exam for work over the next month

gold and glass I hope everything's alright man

[ssa]

sometimes i manically want to skip straight to step 9.

[Chyet]

I start a two week intensive outpatient program w/ required AA meetings on monday, for excessive alcohol and drug use. Welp, here goes.

[daver]

I start a two week intensive outpatient program w/ required AA meetings on monday, for excessive alcohol and drug use. Welp, here goes.

how'd it go?

[ruiner]

well, looks like i need to do this. had some health problems crop up due to drinking and have been fucking up left and right at work and am just increasingly aware of the fact that the habit is doing me way more harm than good. anyone have any experience with tapering?

[joe bitch tv]

when im drunk im insane. i still do it. not like damn dude you acted insane last night but like actually completely section worthy insane. i hate it.