lockheed wrote:been sober about a week and a half now, have basically given up on sleeping at this point
i justify low-sleep nights now by telling myself when i used to drink it wasn't uncommon for me to be out (or drinking at home alone, whatever) til last call the night before i had work. so if i could do that and more or less function the next day then falling asleep sober and well hydrated at 3am is nothing.
had one of those nights where it feels like i hadn't slept in like three months, and then i just fucking konked out for 12 hours. maybe should be in the "i finally got some sleep" thread. is there one of those?
every dream i have revolves around some pressure filled situation though. last night i didn't even dream. just straight black out. (which i'm fine with)
when you can't sleep what do you do to occupy yourself? woke up randomly at 2am, been up for 2 hrs now and i know i'm not supposed to look at my phone but i really don't know what else to do. Certainly don't have the energy to do anything else and anyway pur apartment's too small for me to make a ruckus/turn on a light at this point. problem is on my phone i keep reading articles about climate change and politics and just end up feeling worse. ugh.
haven't read the thread yet but maybe this would be a proper place for my questions regarding dreams
i never had too bad of dreams in my life.. i definitely suffer from ptsd from drug abuse and situations I put myself in, but all that goes back really far. lately i've had the most awful nightmares/night terrors. every possible situation that could occur in my life that would ruin it and devastate happens, and not only that, but it's almost like people trick me into situations that makes me do these things or cause them to happen. anyway
what do you do to kill nightmares? any reccs at all... looney or not, i'm ready to try anything
i wore nicotine patches and i know when they were really strong, it made them a lot worse and more vivid. but i've stopped the nicotine even
I have a lot of trouble sleeping. I take amitriptyline to help me sleep and I've been trying to depend on it less. My girlfriend bought me an 18 pound weighted blanket for my birthday. Tonight's my first night sleeping with it.
mites wrote:going back to ruining my life with drugs and drink and listening to public image ltd
Klint wrote:I have a lot of trouble sleeping. I take amitriptyline to help me sleep and I've been trying to depend on it less. My girlfriend bought me an 18 pound weighted blanket for my birthday. Tonight's my first night sleeping with it.
Report back, please... I was thinking about getting one of these at about, oh, 4 this morning.
I've gotten up between 1-3 every night this week. Last night was the first time I've fallen back asleep (after 3 hours, nice).
from experience (my recollection of the last period of my life where I was somewhat well-rested), I know my body needs 8+ hours. I haven't had more than 4-5 hours sleep a night in probably five or six years except on weekends when it manifests in staying up until 2 or 3 and then almost always sleeping until noon regardless of my intentions. I don't think I have a disorder, I just don't know how to manage my life. I feel the person using my body in the 15m-4h between when my alarm goes off and when I'm in the shower is some inhabiting spirit who actively works to sabotage me and with whom I have no means of communication
it's strongly contributing to both hating my job *and* making my boss and coworkers think I'm bad at it because I'm chronically late and short-tempered, even though on paper I think I should like my job quite a bit and be really good at it. I don't know how to explain this 'problem' so I just say nothing.
fucking jet lag hitting me a day late - night two of lying in bed with heart pounding and i dont think i will make it through tomorrow if i have another four hour night
goddamn insomnia is the absolute worst affliction there is